Lyrics
baby, stay forever and a day
learn to play with my body in a hundred different ways
learn to link up all the dots with the soul, with the thoughts
till the drums cut you off going rah-tah-tah (ha-ha-ha-ha-ha)how did you get so good?
how did you get so kind?
How did you get so good?
How did you get so kind?how did you get so good?
Lyrics
i fight it every day
why am i this way?
a nigga tryna maintain
i sit and tell myself, "okay
we gotta find another way
you gotta find another way
you gotta find another way-yeah-ow"
don't be so down, c'mon young homie
you'll be okay, you'll find real love
all of the stories, the hero gets lonely
Lyrics
and the year before was buddist
to keep from buying me clothes, i bet you'll probably be a nudist, huh?
probably have my moms on maury, asking them to prove it
so i put my face on albums so you'll have to face the music
and when i think about it, it couldn't of been that hard
i didn't need the money, man, i just wanted the card
but you was always busy or like
| fic | date published | a/n |
|---|---|---|
| all lies are lies (daisy in false love) | 22/06/30 | give me a do-over rn istg |
| all of the stories, the hero gets lonely | 22/11/23 | all my txt fics are good people just don't read them |
| allow me into your imagination (and reality) | 24/08/09 | mattrae. fake dating. YIPPEE!!! |
| and we are not alone (echo my song) | 24/06/28 | hadestown. and binneul. literally so good! |
| be cool and move on | 22/11/11 | literally the cutest thing ever but jihoon is devious as hell |
| but i can't bring myself to say it | 24/11/02― | sellen or whatever like those my divas |
| can you handle me? | 23/04/14―23/04/15 | happy dojae day fuckers |
| did nobody ever tell you grapes are better in september? | 23/02/10 | i absolutely love this oh my god me when the when if the when |
| don't ever let me come down from your love | 23/0/31 | i LOVE JOHNIL but this fic actually took forever |
| eight words when i think about us... | 23/10/27 | SHIMKONGZ MAKE ME GO INSANE ISTFG |
| everything that felt like a dream is falling apart | 22/11/17―23/05/26 | serillen babygirl coded |
| flash, flash, mmm, cheese!? | 22/10/01 | shy yechan agenda anyone??? |
| for years and years | 24/06/01 | happy pride month look at some T4T GYUBRIK!!!!!!!!! |
| give it up! | 22/06/26 | projected onto taeil here ngl |
| great things manifesting right in front of me (i’ll be the king of my castle) | 22/08/20 | the sandwiches in this are the ones my dad makes for lunch |
| i asked you please to leave my heart but you refused to go | 23/12/15 | baekhyun needs like a really good hug and not from xing |
| i can change all of your moods | 23/01/06 | jaehyun is an idiot but guess what? it worked! |
| i could be your love, but nevermind | 22/06/19 | choonghyun is not a bitch irl i don't know why i made him so mean here |
| i know it sounds super cliché | 22/11/01 | i didn't stan exo when baekxing knew each other |
| i love it, love it, love it | 22/06/18 | why is this so popular? anyways the subspace sucks lol |
| i run, i crash, i get hurt (but the more i try, the more i fall) | 22/08/23 | i love this fic sm. my little homosexual witch doyoung |
| i think i need some loving tutorials | 23/03/11 | wip for over a month lol it turned out not as cute as i wished it did |
| i think i'm in love with you | 24/04/07 | happy johnmarkfest heres the greatest sweetest fluffiest au of my career |
| i'm movin', i'm movin', i'm movin' on | 23/04/28 | a buncha words fr |
| i'm not blushing !! | 23/03/35 | "i fucking hate you" "hate you more" loving the dynamic |
| i'm not good with names and faces | 24/04/06 | johnmarkfest but make them have raw sex |
| i'm talking with my hands, oh baby, here is my confession | 23/01/01 | service top ten over everything |
| i’m the one for you, can’t nobody do you better (honey, honey) | 22/09/04 | jaehyun is kind of a |
| it sings to me like fa-la-la-la, la | 23/12/25 | merry christmas! here's some yuwook love |
| it was a murder but not a crime | 24/09/30 | oh gyub... he's not good for you. |
| kiss me and bite me | 23/11/18 | ricky had me G U I L T Y |
| like you're addicted (i can't handle) | 24/05/28 | happy birthday matthew...? |
| (let's make) love on the floor | 23/02/14 | uhhh johnmark smut that's literally it |
| let's do the time warp again! | 22/12/25 | if i gave myself more time this would've been better |
| my baby got me looking forward to the end of the day | 22/11/02 | i should do free use kink more... (looks at drafts) |
| my mind which is stuck in a nostalgic maze | 22/08/27 | you people get to imagine the initial jigyu sex lol sry not sry |
| most people really don’t get me (blank stare, don’t care, don’t ask) | 22/07/24 | why is this so popular it's so weird for a smut |
| night after night (fucking you right) | 23/08/20 | umm basically top hoon >>>>>> |
| now you need to face the truth | 22/09/15 | okay raise ur hands if nohyuck glass box had you feeling things |
| one, two, counter-punch, knockout! | 22/11/29 | someone pin me against the ground fr |
| please don’t go, (i’ll eat you whole) i love you so | 22/10/31 | kun ignoring ten's offers lol |
| please tame me | 24/08/30 | ricky freak central |
| power up! | 25/01/12 | ATLAAAAA |
| says he’ll love you no matter what (cheers you up so incredibly) | 22/11/30 | i always miss taemin |
| stars are only pretty from afar, hee (i’m fucked and i know that i am) | 22/09/22 | short yoonbae fluff |
| there's no need to hide our desire | 23/11/10 | nobody gets bbangiz like i do |
| tonight, i kinda want you to come over | 22/12/18 | this ship doesn't exist but this smut is actually my best |
| what if it's all just pretend? (my life has turned around like a movie) | 23/12/24 | merry christmas heres they/he ricky |
| while everything between us is getting wet | 23/03/13 | nana being the unofficial recipient of this fic |
| you are the only one who doesn't know the whole world is in love with you | 23/09/24 | it got WAYYY longer than expected lol |
| you don’t know me but i wanna say hello (think about you every night) | 22/08/09―23/02/20 | renjun = y/n |
| your new boyfriend's an asshole... (whoo!) | 23/01/26― | yes. i love this. |
| fic (ao3) | fic (wp) | date published | a/n |
|---|---|---|---|
| ❥ 𝟮 𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗨𝗦 𝟭. | 𝟮 𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗨𝗦 𝟭. ❥ sungtaro. | 22/11/05―23/03/12 | i wanted to write angst and i have no idea why i thought of sungtaro for it first |
| ❥ 𝗔 𝗠𝗘𝗟𝗢𝗗𝗬. | 𝗔 𝗠𝗘𝗟𝗢𝗗𝗬. ❥ gonhun. | 22/04/15―22/08/26 | i am obsessed with flower diseases because of this silly little book |
| ❥ 𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡 𝗙𝗜𝗚𝗨𝗥𝗘. | 𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡 𝗙𝗜𝗚𝗨𝗥𝗘. ❥ nct. | 21/12/04―22/11/18 | annoying update schedule. why did i do this to myself? |
| ❥ 𝗖𝗔𝗡'𝗧 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗦𝗘𝗘 𝗠𝗘. | 𝗖𝗔𝗡'𝗧 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗦𝗘𝗘 𝗠𝗘. ❥ tomorrow x together. | 22/01/01 | literally my favourite fic but nobody reads it :( |
| ❥ 𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗬 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗘. | 𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗬 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗘. ❥ johntenmark, kunten, markyong, johnjae | 23/03/21 | get tenmarkyong help |
| ❥ 𝗗𝗘𝗧𝗘𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗩𝗘. | 𝗗𝗘𝗧𝗘𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗩𝗘. ❥ sope. | 21/04/10―22/09/01 | my writing was so CRINGE at the beginning i am so sorry |
| ❥ 𝗚𝗔𝗟𝗔𝗫𝗬. | 𝗚𝗔𝗟𝗔𝗫𝗬. ❥ sope. | 21/10/30―22/04/09 | i actually love tae's redemption arc in this |
| ❥ 𝗛𝗢𝗠𝗘. | 𝗛𝗢𝗠𝗘. ❥ nct. | 22/06/27―22/07/08 | if jaejae is not the mother to all of them then it's at least the dreamies (inspired by dream x mmtg) |
| ❥ 𝗛𝗢𝗧𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗘. | 𝗛𝗢𝗧𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗘. ❥ minsung. | 21/11/11―22/04/24 | this makes me want to write minsung smut and another really annoying character |
| ❥ book 1, book 2, book 3, book 4, book 5, book 6 | 𝗛𝗢𝗪 𝗧𝗢 𝗠𝗔𝗞𝗘 𝗙𝗥𝗜𝗘𝗡𝗗𝗦 (𝟭-𝟲). ❥ cix. | 22/10/31, 23/03/01, 23/08/03, 23/12/14, 24/04/22, 24/10/11 | i would commit a murder with my besties too honestly |
| ❥ 𝗜 𝗔𝗠. | 𝗜 𝗔𝗠. ❥ renhyuck. | 23/01/13―23/03/14 | this wasn't going to be a series but then side renhyuck became full renhyuck |
| ❥ 𝗜𝗡𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗧𝗘. | 𝗜𝗡𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗧𝗘. ❥ trendz. | 22/07/10―22/08/25 | look ateez were an afterthought but mingi owns my whole heart in here |
| ❥ 𝗜𝗡𝗩𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗚𝗔𝗧𝗢𝗥. | 𝗜𝗡𝗩𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗚𝗔𝗧𝗢𝗥. ❥ sope. | 22/09/01―23/08/17 | johnjae were only added so i'd have an explanation for kun and the helicopter |
| ❥ 𝗝𝗨𝗦𝗧 𝗔𝗡 𝗔𝗖𝗧. | 𝗝𝗨𝗦𝗧 𝗔𝗡 𝗔𝗖𝗧. ❥ yuwin. | 22/12/01― | originally a oneshot but then i changed my mind lol |
| ❥ 𝗟.𝗜.𝗙.𝗘. | 𝗟.𝗜.𝗙.𝗘. ❥ kunten. | 23/05/24― | holland being levelheaded while ten drools over a man |
| ❥ 𝗟𝗢𝗖𝗞𝗘𝗧. | 𝗟𝗢𝗖𝗞𝗘𝗧. ❥ nct. | 23/03/17― | no thoughts head empty only mama 2020 resonance stage (im learning to play the inst on the piano) |
| ❥ 𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗧 & 𝗙𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗗. | 𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗧 & 𝗙𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗗. ❥ shimkongz. | 23/10/03― | in a silly goofy mood?? |
| ❥ 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗢𝗙 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗢𝗥𝗧𝗦. | 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗢𝗙 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗢𝗥𝗧𝗦. ❥ a pluto side story. | 22/09/19―22/09/30 | i did this for the meanie proposal also rings are cool |
| ❥ 𝗢𝗡 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗜𝗡𝗦𝗜𝗗𝗘. | 𝗢𝗡 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗜𝗡𝗦𝗜𝗗𝗘. ❥ nct. | 23/02/01― | sanghyun is a lil bitch boy |
| ❥ 𝗣𝗟𝗨𝗧𝗢. | 𝗣𝗟𝗨𝗧𝗢. ❥ junhao. | 22/09/05―22/09/16 | i love writing tragedies. |
| ❥ 𝗥𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗕𝗘𝗥. | 𝗥𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗕𝗘𝗥. ❥ taeten. | 23/11/05― | i think i should stop projecting |
| ❥ 𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘. | 𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘. ❥ nct. | 22/11/18― | smrookies were sort of shoved in last minute i hope you can't tell |
| ❥ 𝗥𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘 𝗠𝗔𝗝𝗢𝗥 𝗞𝗜𝗠 𝗦𝗔𝗦𝗨𝗡𝗚. | ❥ 𝗥𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘 𝗠𝗔𝗝𝗢𝗥 𝗞𝗜𝗠 𝗦𝗔𝗦𝗨𝗡𝗚. | 22/12/01― | i would totally fuck park hyunjin im just saying. peep the website. |
| ❥ 𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗖𝗞 𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛 𝗬𝗢𝗨. | ❥ 𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗖𝗞 𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛 𝗬𝗢𝗨. | 22/12/01― | i don't like coffee so do this with boba if ur tryna win me over |
| ❥ 𝗦𝗨𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗡𝗢𝗩𝗔. | 𝗦𝗨𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗡𝗢𝗩𝗔. ❥ sope. | 21/05/10―21/10/30 | greatest plot, good execution |
| ❥ 𝗧𝗔𝗞𝗘 𝗠𝗘 𝗕𝗔𝗖𝗞. | 𝗧𝗔𝗞𝗘 𝗠𝗘 𝗕𝗔𝗖𝗞. ❥ chanlix. | 21/07/03―21/09/06 | if i got a do-over, i would take it in a heartbeat |
| ❥ 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗚𝗘𝗡𝗘𝗥𝗔𝗟 𝗚𝗔𝗬’𝗦 𝗚𝗨𝗜𝗗𝗘 𝗧𝗢 𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗖𝗘𝗟𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗘𝗢𝗨𝗦 𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗞𝗘𝗦. | 𝗧𝗚𝗚𝗚𝗧𝗠𝗠. ❥ luten. | 22/01/10― | soft ten is something i should write more but he's such a devious little minx |
| // | 𝗧𝗛𝗘-𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗘-𝗚𝗥𝗢𝗨𝗣. ❥ nct oneshots. | 21/09/04― | i have the urge to turn all of these into full fics |
| ❥ 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗬 𝗢𝗙 𝗙𝗔𝗩𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗜𝗧𝗘. | 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗬 𝗢𝗙 𝗙𝗔𝗩𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗜𝗧𝗘. ❥ nct 127. | 22/10/03―22/11/29 | i would totally pull a jaehyun because that bitch... |
| ❥ 𝗧𝗢 𝗬𝗢𝗨. | 𝗧𝗢 𝗬𝗢𝗨. ❥ dojae. | 23/10/04― | dojae <3 |
| ❥ 𝗩𝗘𝗚𝗔𝗦. | 𝗩𝗘𝗚𝗔𝗦. ❥ kunten, dojae, xiaocas, noren. | 23/02/23― | all my silly fruitcakes |
| ❥ 𝗩𝗢𝗜𝗖𝗘. | 𝗩𝗢𝗜𝗖𝗘. ❥ sope. | 21/10/20―21/11/20 | this sope over everything |
| ❥ 𝗪𝗛𝗢. | 𝗪𝗛𝗢. ❥ nomin. | 23/06/07―23/09/17 | jaemin is partially gay and jeno is gay to an extent (he's also dumb lmao) |
| ❥ 𝗪𝗛𝗢 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗚𝗢𝗡𝗡𝗔 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗟? | 𝗪𝗛𝗢 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗚𝗢𝗡𝗡𝗔 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗟? ❥ booseoksoon. | 23/10/01― | i have never watched ghostbusters |
| ❥ 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗔𝗥𝗘. | 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗔𝗥𝗘. ❥ chenji. | 22/09/16―23/01/12 | projected onto hyuck a lil here |
| gift from | fic | date published | r/n |
|---|---|---|---|
| midahlia | a sinner's redemption | 22/12/29 | taeyong's insane behaviour just like me fr |
| nana | blub! blub... blub? (therapy! for... fish?) | 23/03/12 | mertaro RIGHTS |
| tori | because we're together | 23/12/04 | birthday fic pt 2 and its actually NOT SMUT!! |
| tori | just take a bite of me | 22/12/04 | birthday fic from myself to myself |
how to nagivate
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